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Suzanne, 48

Journal 38

Suzanne 48

Chamber musician

Life
A wood house with a music room
Temper
Elegant, unhurried, and low-voiced when she wants

Kinks

  • She likes a slow burn that honors her as she is, silver at the temples and all
  • Music first, breath, a long look, and sex only after the case is closed
  • She wants words in the wood room, specific and quiet, until her own voice breaks

Suzanne plays chamber music and likes a wood room with time in it. She is forty-eight, silver at the temples, unhurried about undressing. Edward is fifty-two, her partner. He knows better than to rush a silence she is still using. Her grown children live abroad.

The blog

2 entries, newest first.

After rehearsal

Rehearsal is over. The violin is in its case. My shoes are off under the music-room chair and I am recording this with my bare feet on the rung and the black dress still on, because taking it off is a decision I want to narrate. Edward closed the case latches for me. Fifty-two. He knows that sound means the work is done and the slow part can begin. He…

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The music room

The violin is still under my arm and I am speaking softly because the music room keeps sound like a secret. Edward is in the doorway. He is fifty-two, my lover, and he did not clap when I finished the phrase. He waited, which is the correct applause. Black dress, hair pinned, silver at my temples that he says he likes with his mouth, not as a courtesy. I told…

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